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Little earthquakes
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YOUR CLOUD
kopierat från Emmelemzi.blogg.seHade en härlig dag. Verkligen. Det är såhär dagar skall vara! Fulla av överraskningar. Morgonens överraskningar kan ses i förra inlägget.
Stackars Ch hade tråkigt och inget att göra så jag bara sa åt henne att komma hit, eftersom jag själv lite var i samma situation. Så tänkte jag att nog kommer vi på någonting att göra tillsammans. Och oj vad rätt jag hade!
Vi gick ut och gick först till Kiosken för att köpa glass. Det var ett glassväder! Efter att vi ätit våra glassar och suttit en stund på en bänk där Ch tog sina första bilder. Av två bänkar och en roskkorg.
Min första bild.Vi gick runt i skogen och pratade och fotade.
Naturen är till för att njutas och fotas. Jag älskar och fota.
Ch ville ha bild på oss. Den blev lyckad tycker jag, även om mitt hår har egna vändningar och grejs.
Vackert.Så gick vi till mej en stund. Lyssnade lite på musik och liknande. Så åt vi lite. Kyckling.
Så gick vi ut igen. 🙂 Gick en lång väg tills vi kom till en kiosk igen. Vi gick in och köpte läsk och ch köpte även godis.
Så gick vi till en park och satte oss på en bänk. Där satt vi och drack vår läsk och pratade om allt mellan himmel och jord. Tog lite bilder. Vi satt där ganska länge.
Så gick vi till metron.
Ch i metron.En sista bild. Bevis på att man INTE skall fota mig:
Jag hade en jätte rolig dag. 🙂 -
22366-49 GOT A CLOUD SLEEPING ON MY TONGUE
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(and kiss the violets as they’re waking up)
Där är mitt rums fönster.
Vaknade tidigt idag. Kunde inte sova för att solen lyste så vackert in genom fönstret. Härligt att sommaren är här. 🙂
KÄNDIS!
Herregud. Nämnd i TVÅ bloggar på samma dag. (det kanske har någonting att göra med att samma person skriver i båda.) Men vad glad jag blev av det!
Ida, du är en härlig person! Jag tycker om dig!
Ch kommer hit! :D:D Vi skall ut och fota träd! 😛 -
After all
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never was a cornflake girl
thought that was a good solution
hangin with the raisin girlsVet inte vad jag skall tänka riktigt just. Vet inte ens varför jag började skriva här. Behöver jag bara skriva av mig? Eller vad är det? Vem kan nu sen säga.words like violence
break the silence
come crashing in
into my little world
painful to me
pierced right through me
can’t you understand
oh my little girlMår konstigt och bra på samma gång. Lyssnar på Tori Amos. Kära Ida skicka en hel del åt mig så nu kan jag njuta riktigt mycket.Var just ute och promenera. Njöt av trädens grönska och naturens beauty (synd att jag inte hade kamera med.) Kanske jag tar och går en runda imorron oxå och tar kameran med och fotar lite.
Nu har jag fått en kompis att gilla åtminstone en Tori låt. Jackies Strength. Yay! 😀
Hejej.
make me laugh
say you know what you want
you said we were the real thing
so i show you some more and i learn
Alla låttexter i denna blogg var av Tori Amos. -
Gold dust
kopierat från X3MJag hade SUPERKIVA på torsdagen! Helt jätte härlig dag! :D:D:D Tack vare mah sweetie Hipsu!
Igår ringde vissa personer åt mig. Fulla. Jaha. Roligt. Again.
Älskar Tori Amos.
Ida är så söt.
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so deep that it didn’t even bleed
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Haha. Visst fin bild eller hur? jag måste ju bara få med mina naglar.
Jag är lite borta just nu. Bara för allt med det jävliga telefonsamtalet igår. Sitter där efteråt och darrar. Jag fattar inte att jag ringde när hon bad mig göra det. Jag förstår inte. Varför skall man ringa åt mig då när man är helt full?! Please. Kan ni inte ringa då när ni minns samtalet efteråt?
Men nejdå.
Jaha.
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För dig Hipsu & andra intresserade.
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English story.
kopierat från emmelemzi.blogg.seJag lovade sätta ut denna så varsågoda. Antagligen så läser ingen eftersom den är lång. Jag har inte haft någon att läsa den för korrektur så vissa fel kan finnas. Men ändå.Kiss me, Kill me, Love me.
Small rain drops hit the window and make a small that I listened closely to. I didn’t know why I just sat there in front of the window and looked out at the empty street. There was nothing to look at, no people, nothing.Maybe it was the emptiness that drawed my attention. Could that be the reason I sat there?It started to get dark. People started to put their lights on.I liked the dark. There was calmness in the dark that you could not find anywhere else. And it’s a place to hide in. Hide your own feelings.Crazy, maybe, but that’s just how I felt. I needed the darkness. I would be lost without it. But I needed the light too. There wouldn’t exist darkness without light.Lonelyness, why does that exist? Who needs it anyway? It’s the longing for someone. The waiting…I sighed. I couldn’t understand the world. I just wanted to forget everything. Stop thinking. Stop feeling…My phone started ringing. I sighed again and looked at it. Slowly I made my way to it.Hana.Why was she calling me? Why wasn’t she home yet?I let it ring even though something inside of me wanted me to answer it. I didn’t want to hear her excuses for not being here.I sat down on the bed and started looking at the door hopeing that she would come running through it, trying to find words. She didn’t.I heard footsteps from the other side of the door. A part of me started hopeing again that it would be her.“Lil!”I stared down at the floor when Alex opened the door.Disappointed.He just looked at me for a while. Don’t look up. Don’t look up. I looked up and noticed that he had a phone in his hand.“It’s Hana. She wants to talk to you.”He put the phone on the bed beside me and walked out of the room, leaving me alone with the phone. I stared at the phone for some seconds. Guess I had to take it.I took the phone but didn’t make any sound. Hana was on the other end, that I knew. I could hear her breathing. That small sound made me calm. The knowledge of her there made me calm down and forget my disappointment on her not being here.“Lil?”I bit my lip so that I wouldn’t answer her. The sound of her voice woke up the longing feeling inside of me. The longing for her. I wont answer. No.I made a small sound to let her know that I was there.“Why didn’t you answer your phone?”She went right to the point. No, small talk. No, I’m sorry I’m not there. No, I miss you.“I didn’t hear it.”Hana knew I was lying. I never did leave my phone anywhere. I always had it with me.She didn’t comment on my lie. I could just hear her breathing again. I sighed. Soon she was going to say it. Say that she was going to stay at a friends house or at her parents.Typical.“Lilith. I just wanted you to know…” Now she was going to say it. I was right. I knew it.“…that I’m on my way.”What?! This was not right! This was not in the script! I couldn’t find any words. I was in chock. I couldn’t believe what I just had heard. Was I dreaming? Had I fallen asleep during the time I sat in front of the window?I couldn’t find any words. I was in chock. I couldn’t believe what I just had heard. Was I dreaming? Had I fallen asleep during the time I sat in front of the window?
“ I’ll be there soon. Bye.”A small sound told me that she was not there anymore.She was coming home.Now I started hearing the voices from the other room. The living room.The party. My party. Should I go and be the Birthday girl?Slowly I stood up and made my way towards the door with the phone in my hand. I opened the door and could see all of my friends standing in the room, talking and laughing. Having fun.“Is she coming?” Alex asked when he noticed me.I just nodded. My words were lost and I couldn’t find them.She was coming. She had always missed my birthday, but now she was coming.I sat down on the sofa and someone gave me a drink. Probably some alcohol. Defiantly alcohol. I drank it and asked someone to give me more. Alex looked at me with concern. He knew what could happen if I got to much alcohol. He has seen it .I didn’t care about him. I needed a drink.The doorbell rang after a while and of course everyone was waiting for me to go and open. I wanted to scream that I wasn’t five years old, but I didn’t. The doorbell sounded again and I stood up.I made my way to the front door and opened it.Hana.She stood there in front of me smiling brightly. I had to look like a fish.“Happy birthday.” She hugged me quickly and I took a step back to let her in.I had almost forgot that she was coming. My feelings were having war with each other and I couldn’t make any sense out of them.For a while I just stood there looking at her. She was so beautiful. An angel on earth.“Lil? Are you okay?”I could see the concern in her eyes.I nodded and smiled to tell her yes. Maybe I was lying a bit but I just didn’t want to see her so concerned. I wanted her to be happy and smile.She made her way to the living room where everyone were waiting to know who had come. I didn’t follow her, not right then anyway. I just stood there and starred after her. I was happy. I should have been that. Why did something feel so wrong? Everything was perfect.I shook my head and followed Hana to the living room where she was standing and talking to Alex. I felt a weird feeling ran through my body and mind. Jealous. Shame on me.There was no reason for me to be jealous. I knew that. But still…Hana was looking at me and I met her gaze. She made her way through the room towards me. I got the want to run away. Hide. But it was like I were glued to the floor. I couldn’t move. The feeling of something being wrong came back. I couldn’t breath.“Lil. We need to talk.”She took my hand and lead me to the room where I had been sitting. Hana closed the door behind us. I was biting my lip. Let us say that it’s a bad habit I can’t get rid of.“I have something important to tell you, but first…”She put a hand on my shoulder and kissed me on the lips. A sweet taste filled my mouth . I kissed her back. This was real. I put my arms around her and pulled her against myself.Kiss me.She pulled away.Wrong.“Sit down.” She sounded serious.I sat down on the bed and looked at her. She wasn’t looking at me. She was looking at everything else. Something was wrong.“I’ve been offered a job…”Now she looked at me.“That’s great.” I thought that was what she wanted me to say.She nodded. “It’s a really great job..” She started biting on her lip. She swallowed.“It’s in Paris.”I starred at her. She couldn’t be serious. I couldn’t breath again. There was something blocking the way.“No.” I looked down at the floor. “No.”I wanted to hear her say that she was not going to take the job, but inside I knew that she was not going to say it. She wouldn’t have told me if that was the case.Wrong.I couldn’t stay there so I stood up, took my phone and the car keys.Hana screamed after me but I didn’t stop. I ran out and in to the car. The car started and I backed it out of the driveway.I didn’t know where I was going just that I couldn’t stay there.Tears ran down my cheeks and I did nothing to stop them.Hana was going to move to Paris. No.She was calling me but I didn’t answer. There was nothing she could say that would make it different or better.Alex. Hana. Alex. Hana and someone else from the party.I didn’t answer.Kill me.Where was I?Was I dead? No I wasn’t, I could feel pain and hear someone talking far away. I didn’t open my eyes. I didn’t have the strength for that.Weak.I could feel someone take my hand. A soft hand.“Lil. If you can hear me. I’m sorry.”Hana. I could hear that she was crying. I wanted to cry.“Please Lil. Wake up.”No. I want todie.Slowly I opened my eyes. Hana was now looking at the floor. She was tired. I could see that.“Hana.”She jumped.“Lil. Thank God!” She hugged me and almost killed me at the same time. “I’m so sorry. This is all my fault.”I smiled tiredly. “No, it’s mine.”Hana looked at me.“I should have stopped you. You didn’t let me finish. I want you with me. I can’t live without you. I almost lost you and for the second I thought I had, I couldn’t breath.”I starred at her. She wanted me with her to Paris.“I love you, Hana.”“I love you, Lil.”Love me. -
Dagens fråga.
kopierat från X3MHar ätit en massa dåligt idag och kommer att gå upp 100 kg! (eller nej) Känner mig jätte fläskig!
Och nu låter jag som en jävla fjortis.
Dagens fråga: Varför får inte barn vara barn längre??
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22366-46 the ego
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Så jävligt ego man har blivit sen man fick kamera. Haha. Again a picture of ME. Tagen av undertecknad.
Vissa naglar är ännu längre nuförtiden eftersom det är en tid sen den där bilden är tagen. Datorn ligger faktiskt precis framför mig så det där är liksom det jag har bakom mig när jag sitter vid datorn.Hade jätteroligt med Julz igår på teatern. Den hette Blås. Den var rolig. Julz hade mycket hål på sina byxor så mitt “lilla” hål på ena knät kändes inte så farligt längre. Dessutom så är det ju bara coolt. 😛 Köpte ett jättefint halsband också. Kär. Föreställer en blixt. (tar kanske bild på den nångång så skall ni få se.)
Efter pjäsen på vägen till metron och spåran så kom det ett gäng ungdomar imot oss. Det vara bara killar och antagligen så skulle ena gå och gifta sig för han var klädd i en svart sopsäck och en princess krona på huvudet. Det såg fint ut. 😛 Han ställde sig framför oss. Han skulle ha vilja köpa tre kondomer för 10 €!!! Tyvärr så hade vi inga. Damn. Senare så märkte Julz att hon skulle ha haft en. och såklart gärna ha sålt den för en 10a.Skoldagen idag var helt okej. Kom bara en timme för tidigt. Köpte en ny bok.
Har ätit en massa skit.Helloy my name is Emzi and I’m getting fat.
